The Audacity to Paint When Immigrant Children Remain in Cages

By: Shon Mapp

In the living room of our altbau flat, I stand a soundless slab of solid granite, flanked by too many white walls, while she wildly gesticulates her disappointment. 

“Where were you? she asked.

“I was where I am now, here. Creating.”

She peeled away her dark layers in front of the closet and walked towards the kitchen.

The rest of the night was spent apart in a slow silent truce. An unlikely serenity hung in the air following our non-argument, disrupted only by her phone calls with the other protest organizers.  After midnight, when I could no longer hear her soles slide across the honey wood floors, I stood from my squatted position to study the hundreds of tiny painted cages that covered three quarters of the enormous canvas.

I could hear her soft breath as I entered the room and stood bedside for a few moments, waiting for the dark adaptation to reveal her still silhouette under the duvet. In seconds, her legs appeared in a forward slash across the queen mattress. I tiptoed from the puddle of paint speckled clothing and slid into bed. My legs snaked between hers as I inched closer until our breasts touched.

“Did you finish? She mumbled. 

“No. But, I’m tired,” I replied.

“Yeah. Me too.”


Shon Mapp (she/her) is a queer Black writer whose work explores multicultural immigrant identities, kinship and queer intimacy. Her poems and short stories have been published or are forthcoming in Fourteen Poems, Ghost Heart, Kissing Dynamite, Dwelling Lit, Glitchwords, and Cathexis Northwest Press.