Kyla

By: Lynne Schmidt

My mother watches my girl

unfurl from the couch and move haphazardly

to the bedroom.

She’s slowing down, my mother comments, eyes thick

with store bought sadness.

It’s true –

her once lively step is halted and uncoordinated,

the fur that frames her face is grey and white.

her eyes have become milky pools.

She is slowing down, I confirm.

But I have had to let go of a dog

whose life gave out before

his body.

And this – watching her age – watching

her slow, taking more measured steps,

having to help her on the couch, into bed, in the car as

she can no longer twist her hips

to jostle her forward,

is something we don’t always get to experience.

This I tell my mother, This isn’t sad, this is a gift, a privilege.

Getting to watch her go from mountain hiking, tennis ball chasing youth,

to aged walks more pee breaks to the eventual still and

final rest.


Lynne Schmidt (she/her) is the granddaughter of a Holocaust survivor and mental health professional with a focus in trauma and healing. She is the author of the chapbooks, Gravity (Nightingale and Sparrow Press) which was listed as one of the 17 Best Breakup Books to Read in 2020, and On Becoming a Role Model (Thirty West), which was featured on The Wardrobe's Best Dressed for PTSD Awareness Week. Her work has received the Maine Nonfiction Award, Editor's Choice Award, and was a 2018 and 2019 PNWA finalist for memoir and poetry respectively. Lynne was a five time 2019 Best of the Net Nominee, and an honorable mention for the Charles Bukowski and Doug Draime Poetry Awards. In 2012 she started the project, AbortionChat, which aims to lessen the stigma around abortion. When given the choice, Lynne prefers the company of her three dogs and one cat to humans.